[ It's a gift Yuji can't refuse, even if he thinks he ought to.
The time he was able to spend with Nanami was so short, but the impact was so undeniable. He was shaped by the man holding on to him now, given strength but also broken down by his loss, knowing that he would carry the weight of that guilt for such a long time after. Nanami had told him that he had it, that he would carry things on, but Yuji's well aware of his failings in that regard; there's no way Nanami would've performed so poorly if their roles were reversed.
What this does mean, however, is that he has a chance to grow here. He's got a lot stronger since he last saw Nanami, he can't hide that, but he has further that he can go - and if he can get stronger than he can take it back and use it against Sukuna. He can use it to free Fushiguro and undo all the damage his survival has cost people. Work on the cursed energy he still has, work on his new techniques, make sure he's as powerful as possible before stepping back into the real world and leaving his happiness and joy behind him once again.
He might die, but he's prepared for that. He's been ready to die since the first moment.
Breathing out, soft and slow, Yuji lifts a hand to wipe at his face, pressing the heel of his palm into the corners of his eyes - conspicuously missing scarring, without Sukuna inside him. ]
I'll be happy, then. I want more time with you, Nanamin.
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The time he was able to spend with Nanami was so short, but the impact was so undeniable. He was shaped by the man holding on to him now, given strength but also broken down by his loss, knowing that he would carry the weight of that guilt for such a long time after. Nanami had told him that he had it, that he would carry things on, but Yuji's well aware of his failings in that regard; there's no way Nanami would've performed so poorly if their roles were reversed.
What this does mean, however, is that he has a chance to grow here. He's got a lot stronger since he last saw Nanami, he can't hide that, but he has further that he can go - and if he can get stronger than he can take it back and use it against Sukuna. He can use it to free Fushiguro and undo all the damage his survival has cost people. Work on the cursed energy he still has, work on his new techniques, make sure he's as powerful as possible before stepping back into the real world and leaving his happiness and joy behind him once again.
He might die, but he's prepared for that. He's been ready to die since the first moment.
Breathing out, soft and slow, Yuji lifts a hand to wipe at his face, pressing the heel of his palm into the corners of his eyes - conspicuously missing scarring, without Sukuna inside him. ]
I'll be happy, then. I want more time with you, Nanamin.