[ Yuji doesn't really want to talk about it - he doesn't want to put to words the horrible things that have happened, the nightmare that has come to life. There's no reason why he wouldn't blame himself, when it's his fault entirely - if he hadn't eaten Sukuna's finger, if the occult club hadn't dug it up, maybe all of this would've been avoided. Nanami would've lived, Kugisaki would've been okay, Fushiguro and Gojo-sensei...
How is he not meant to blame himself, when the knowledge of his own failures burns so heavily on his shoulders and makes him feel so nauseated?
Nanami's sigh makes him tense immediately, as if he's done something wrong, as if he's going to be scolded for his thoughts, and he wants to duck away and hide instantly. The last thing that Yuji wants is for Nanami to be disappointed in him, or to see his upset - if he had to face that, he doesn't think he'd be able to take it. He's cried enough, does he have to do more?
He doesn't want Nanami to look at him and be disappointed. It makes him almost whimper, squeezing his eyes shut and shaking his head. ]
If I'd killed Mahito to begin with, then you and Kugisaki would be okay, Kenjaku would've had... It would've been okay... And I made the Vow...
[ It tumbles out as a soft, sad whisper, still not able to look at Nanami. He can't bear the possibility of something negative on the face of someone he respects so much and had missed so desperately. ]
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How is he not meant to blame himself, when the knowledge of his own failures burns so heavily on his shoulders and makes him feel so nauseated?
Nanami's sigh makes him tense immediately, as if he's done something wrong, as if he's going to be scolded for his thoughts, and he wants to duck away and hide instantly. The last thing that Yuji wants is for Nanami to be disappointed in him, or to see his upset - if he had to face that, he doesn't think he'd be able to take it. He's cried enough, does he have to do more?
He doesn't want Nanami to look at him and be disappointed. It makes him almost whimper, squeezing his eyes shut and shaking his head. ]
If I'd killed Mahito to begin with, then you and Kugisaki would be okay, Kenjaku would've had... It would've been okay... And I made the Vow...
[ It tumbles out as a soft, sad whisper, still not able to look at Nanami. He can't bear the possibility of something negative on the face of someone he respects so much and had missed so desperately. ]